I can tell that I’m hyper-sensitive about things nowadays. I need to pay better attention.
My WordPress theme released an update which I automatically installed. Suddenly I had sidebars on my front page, and they weren’t there before updating. It was my reaction to the perceived problem that is my real problem. I hit the panic button.
Anyone who has done web administration knows that stuff happens, that bugs exist, that there are glitches and snitches and witches too. But getting angry at your computer screen isn’t productive. I’ve had a couple website hacks but I have always been able to use those instances as opportunities for growth.
Getting hyper sensitive is counter productive. It’s like hitting your thumb with a hammer; once you whack it there’s the tendency to cover it, care for it, protect it to the point of obsession. Doing that with your life is crazy and foolish. Staying open to experience is important; at least it is to me. I have always found some of my greatest inspirations at times when I was stressed — and if I had been defensive or protective at those times I would have been blind to opportunity.
By the way….
I figured out what had changed in the theme template. New code moved things around and I had my blog back to normal in half an hour; and I feel good that I found the perceived problem.
Now, what I have to do is work on myself so that I stop seeing “problems.” That has never been my way; I usually work through things that have changed until they are the way I want them. I try not to use terms like “bad,” “problem” because negativity is often a function of training or society. All my travels have taught me that what one society thinks is “bad” is often lauded or valued in another society.
The other day when I was writing about Madam Guyon I realized that there were bases in Quietism that I share with her. In the next few days I want to get back to that topic. But not today.
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